I found that throughout this trip I have acclimated to a certain level of stimulus that is constantly around us.

(sounds of cars, and people, and a bell ringing )

I haven’t been in a group like this since highschool,

(sounds of people laughing together)

Its so exciting and exhilarating, and I forgot how much I love it.

 

At some point in Venice I got to sit alone, by myself first time this whole trip. I didn’t realize how viscerally  my body viscerally reacted to nothing (nothing) happening (happening).

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Covid has taught me that I could be alone, and work in solitude and that is all that I really needed. I forgot that I love chaos and things happening. Seeing new things all the time and never knowing what to expect. Again this sort of feeling this sort of community, I forgot how much I love people. I wasn’t expecting that.

But Comparting this trip to highschool has also made me realize how much I have changed sense then. I used to need to be surrounded by chaos, because I couldn’t stand to be alone with my own thoughts.

Doing things made every intrusive awful feeling go away, and now I have learned to enjoy my own company. And it is interesting to see how I have changed, and yet not, all at the same time.