pursual

noun | pur·su·al | \-üəl\

the act or an instance of pursuing:pursuit

Ever since I’ve returned from Japan, there has been this heavy weight on my shoulders. A voice that constantly says “get it done…start now…” Similar to the voice that constantly reminds you to get your errands or chores done when you’re procrastinating. I guess that’s what I’ve been doing…procrastinating.

Now some of you are probably thinking “what are you procrastinating on?”

Answer: the pursual of my goals

For those of you that truly know me, you know that I have A LOT of goals. Travel the world, become a physical therapist, get my Ph.D,  buy my parents a house, impact another human’s life, and soooooo much more!

I’m not going to lie, I’ve been in a slump because I feel like I’m wasting my time on achieving those goals and time is slowly falling through the cracks of my hands like sand.

That’s part of the reason why I recently deleted my social media because I felt like my life was dwindling away at the constant checking of how many likes I get, status updates, etc. Don’t get me wrong, it’s nice seeing what’s going on in a friend’s life especially if they’re far away or if you haven’t seen them in a long time, but not to the point where it consumes your life (or feels like it consumes your life).

Even with my social media gone, I still have this feeling. That’s why I’ve been DYING (not literally, but it feels real) for school to start. There’s something that attracts me to learning. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m closer to obtaining my degree or because obtaining new information every day is satisfying (probably both).

Since I don’t have school for another month and have no social media, I’ve been trying to stay productive. Things I’ve been doing: practicing more of my Japanese language, learning Italian, working on a scrapbook, and writing. It’s not much, but it’s something to get the ball rolling (hopefully the ball will roll faster).

The pursual of my goals and dreams have been constantly taunting me. It’s annoying, but it inspires me to work hard for these goals of mine. I’ll get there soon, just you wait.