Journal

During the BMC workshop, I don’t think I was super surprised to see the actual order of operations, it made sense, I do think the order my group came up with made sense too, and sawyers group. So it kinda feels like it can go any way, to be honest. But maybe not the first 4? I would like to understand the elements of the BMC a little more than I do now. I think using the BMC is the trickiest map for me, probably because I have not completely understood everything until recently and I still can learn more.

Arathi is my favorite speaker that we have come to talk to us. I really like her long in-depth answers. I feel like I learn a lot from her. I was really glad she said that 70% of our thoughts are negative, I have heard that before and I find it to be very true. I have struggled with generalized or extreme anxiety my entire life and it has been a long journey to get to where I am now, I still have a lot I’d like to do! But sometimes it is nice to know it isn’t my fault for my negative thoughts, my brain simply tends to favor them more for some reason. Maybe it’s a fear reaction and my brain thinks it’s harmful thus triggering anxiety. At least that could be what it is for me. Nonetheless, it was a good reminder for me personally.

I’m not entirely sure what coaching is to me. I know what it means but I don’t know how it fits into my life at this moment in time. I suppose I could use coaching for myself but I don’t think I am in a great spot to coach others simply with school being my main priority. Coaching in the program? I feel like I haven’t had a long enough session for it to be as productive as I’d like. I feel like if we do another coaching session I’d like to spend the whole class period doing so to make sure everyone gets what they need. I also feel like most other students don’t make the best coaches, I don’t think I would, I have too much on my mind some days to be able to help someone out and give them my full attention. I think coaching is a great tool but if we use it in class I think we need to really spend time with it to get a lot out of it. For example, Arathi has what I assume are hour-long sessions with one client and it is solely focused on them and what they need help with. I think coaching is supposed to be a little more like that just from a one on one standpoint with designated time for helping one person.

This weekend my friend and I did some tie-dyeing with Rit dye which I don’t know too much about but I know it’s one of the best dyes for fabrics. They look very red but it was much more orange in person. I am so excited to see what they look like!