Content statement: this interview contains themes of physical violence
“Im not a saint but im not a criminal as well. I was 17, homeless for 30 years, when I left my parents home. The reason was, my father was an alcoholic and he used to beat me up every time when he was drunk. And I got used to after 10 years, getting beaten. You dont feel it anymore, but the trigger, why I left my parents home was because he hit my mother so hard, she ended up in the hospital. So I decided to be homeless. I took a bag of clothes and that’s it. No job, no social money from the government and I had really nothing. So that’s how it started, and after 3 years, I had my own apartment and I still have it.” I then asked him how was able to recieve it as in Utrecht specifically, there is an enoumous housing shortage.
‘I was lucky. When you want to rent a house on the regular way you’ll have to wait 10 to 15 years. you have to stay in the city where you have asked for an apartment. You have to go to the house corporation, wait and [have] patience, but when you’re homeless, you don’t have that time. so I [got] help from housing first, and housing for us is especially for people that are long-term homeless like me. I was homeless for like 30 years. If you meet those people, you have to wait like three months, and you get an apartment”.
I described how I studied housing first ovef the course of 6 months, Thinking it was the solution, but heard through many interviews the dangers it creates if you have certain addictions as well. That was when I decided to do personal and organizational interviews instead of just following research methods.
“ I had to come, and I was really addicted to a lot of substances as well. But I’m clean now because I have a girlfriend and kenya and of course my apartment keeps myself clean because I have my rest place now. I can put my stuff there without being afraid that it’s getting stolen. I have my rest. When I want to go to bed, I can just go to bed. It’s much different than the time that I was homeless. I have more than just unrest in my life, so I don’t need the drugs anymore.
I clarified if it’s because he had the support, and he agreed. “But when I was homeless, it [kept] me standing up. It was a difficult time, and drugs could kill all the stress.”
I brought up Enik Recovery College, and why I want to study addiction as part of my grant because of the commonality and afforadbility in the states.
“Most of the homeless people are addicted, but it doesn’t say that all homeless people are addicted. there are still exceptions.”
I tried to ask him more of what it was like was on the streets, and how it has changed from his perception. I could sense deep reluctance, and decided not to push further. As similar to Seattle, I noticed that it would take a stronger relationship to develop the trust for him to share his story. Is that tends to happen in general I have noticed.
‘ First of all, this country is better than any other country in the world. Because this country takes care of the homeless people especially this city. When you go to a Amsterdam, you will see that it’s not like here. Being in Amsterdam, I can understand what he’s talking about. The smell, the distance, just the structure is much less integrated. There are more homeless people in Amsterdam and they don’t have enough places for them, that’s the point. Here, it’s enough everybody can have a bed in the night. And the government helps those people. If you are homeless., you get money from the government.. that’s the best because any other country, we don’t have that.’
I brought up the similarities of welfare, and Social Security, but the difficulty that I’ve noticed is qualifying and actually.
“ the thing is, you cannot blame somebody for being homeless, it can even happened to you.—